Feel so lonely

Today is my hubby's turn to work overnite to monitor/supervise the bangla-workers who are working at night shift. Im feel so lonely as he seldomly have to work at night. He told me every engineer will get their turn once for every 3-4 months. I dunno what to do but surfing. I have taken my dinner at 7 just now. Then im pushing myself to surf internet and hearing True Worshipers song, viewing my frens' fb photos till finally i met 1 of my fren profile consists her blogspot. It attracted me to go tru the blog. Huuuu...very interesting story. She dedicated her blogspot entirely for her family's story including her newly born baby. That's a good blogspot as she shared with us her experiences undergo pregnancy, delivery the baby, breastfeeding and taking care her baby. It seems encouraging me to have my own baby soon.


Im waiting for the call from hubby before started to update my blog. Then suddenly my phone ringing. Even only a short conversation with him but it was trully meaningful to me. I've set in my mind to go back home during lunch hour 2moro..Will go out as early as 12pm and return back at 3pm. After a while, i decided to take 2 hours leave tomorrow so that i dun have to return back to utm again. Frankly speaking, I would like to spend longer free time with him since he's a busy man with tight working schedule.

Our routine life schedule is:
He will wake up as early as 5.30am while me at 6.50am and wait for a series alarm snoozing before getting myself readi. Ya honestly it is very hard to get up in the morning Huhuh...Salute my hubby for being such strong enough to go for work in the dark of morning everyday (mon-sat).


Meanwhile in the evening, my hubby will reach home at 5pm earlier than me for about half an hour. His daily activity is playing football at the nearest field and sometimes cant even wait till im back. Deep from my heart i not really like he spend much times for football. But as he never stop me for shopping, i think i should accept the fact that football is part of his life since he plays football started from his childhood. He only be available at home around 8pm. So guys just imagine how much time left for us together in a day after working and fullfiling his hobby? 10pm we will readi for sleeping again. I always asked for holiday eventhough i knew would receive the same answer "nanti2 or tiada masa". How pain my heart is whenever listening that sort of respond. We cant even having the opportunity for honeymoon yet.


NOw i believe MONEY is not for everything..Life should balance with a happy family as well. From the religious sight of view, mengumpul harta duniawi is not the entity of Cristianity. Carilah wajah Tuhan yang sebenar. Be consistent and have faith on Jesus Christ. To me, our curent life is just enough. Doesnt have to work harder, buying much assets and so on because GOD has prepared everything for us in future.